The trunks smolders,
but maybe it will live.
The branches are in trouble.
The roots are in trouble.
We are
in trouble.
The fire drove living
things back
to the sea.
We can never go back to how
it used to be.
This is a poetry blog. It's like a journal, just not in prose. It should hopefully be its own defense.
The trunks smolders,
but maybe it will live.
The branches are in trouble.
The roots are in trouble.
We are
in trouble.
The fire drove living
things back
to the sea.
We can never go back to how
it used to be.
Life will puncture you
if you are lucky
and take the hot air out of you
sometime before you've risen
so high those around you
seem small.
Some days I see some
balloon-headed fool and think,
"Where is that cosmic arrow?"
It will come both a little too late,
and still be right on time.
"God is in charge"
was the affirmation, "So be not afraid."
And while he wrote it
a baby was born with a tumor,
a thousand people died of preventable
causes, flies surrounded
a starving child,
prisoners sat with faint hope
of seeing freedom,
a wife was beaten while her children
watched and
dozens of judges took
millions of dollars
in bribes.
If I believed in the
first line of this poem,
what would I dare to do about the rest?
What could I do even now?
Job once was asked where he was
while Earth and Heaven were created,
while he sat on a pile, bereft
and blighted.
We all have questions,
don't we?
Truth is the gift people don't love to accept,
Shuhada, though you realized its worth.
Wide-eyed, shaven artist,
you bore witness to it
and by trying to make others see it too
there were those who rejected you,
even though your voice
was that of an angel,
and your halo made
of righteous flame.
But if to say what you feel
is to dig your own grave, why not then
dig one you can stand to lie in, someday?
Is there a reward for compromise
either in heaven or--? No
no, not even here,
Not for a house in Antigua or
all the fame they can cram you with.
You did not want what
you did not have because you had
your whole soul, and you were right:
we need more tearing up of idols
and binding up of our broken selves.
Nothing will ever even get around to normal anymore--
it will just be new, then new, then new.
Things can change quicker than you were prepared for,
and your temporary comfort won't be spared.
Think of it this way: someone set a time-bomb,
and it's been ticking your whole life in the background.
You could learn to live with a time-bomb.
You could even learn to love a time-bomb.
Maybe you find the ticking a reassurance--the sound
you've always heard--but softly. A little reminder of
mortality is all. But if you love something,
wouldn't you want to hold it all together?
If you knew it could all blow apart; throw your arms around it;
try to defuse it, get to the bottom
of what makes it tick?
What if your beloved was about to ring an alarm?
And then.
And then.
Nothing would ever be normal again--
it would just be nothing.
Normal was a time-bomb in your bed.
THAT is what must be unlearned.
She was
caught in a snare we would
consider too cruel
for animals,
a teenager who traveled
a long way, tired and pregnant
and she twisted there, caught on the wires
like a fawn trapped
in the shepherd's fence
meant to separate the domestic
from the wild.
And bleeding she plead with her eyes
for herself and her child.
She was bound to a fate
of captured or drowned.
But then she found,
deeper than the razor cut,
the hope was bled
from her body,
the future she fought for
fallen from her form,
and the silver lining of the American dream
was understood to be steel
and the promise of it--stolen.
And do not forget that,
because your ancestor fluttered in a womb
like hers
and a golden lamp lit their way.
And say what you will:
the dream of America beckons still.
The things that will wash up on your block
had species, phyla, names if you want,
but they won't look like
anything they were supposed to.
Unrecorded, their offspring dissolved,
the last of their kind
swept off the fifth step from the bottom
of your bungalow,
advertised as two miles from the beach.
Extinction will have
a street name and address
but not a marker. I guess you might
watch extinction from the second floor
and still not grasp its reach
as you dip your oar in the water
to get eggs laid
in air condition--
guaranteed not spoiled today.
You will know by then it wasn't always the way--
but still not understand
why the vista of the ocean shames
you now, fearing
you will see in it a vision
of what washes up next.